the philosophactivist

Thursday, November 20, 2014

Trans* Day of Remembrance/ Resistance/Reclamation

This is a speech I gave at City Hall in Austin, Texas last year. It is printed in the zine Philosophactivism 2 and can be found HERE.

Audio coming soon...

Trans Day Of Remembrance/Reclamation/Resistance
City Hall Austin,TX

November 20,2013


Tired of survivin’/strivin’/ bribi’n …you to see my potential/credentials/my mentals/tired of survivin’/strivin’/to stay alive when/some peeps got this privilege/and all I got’s my soul to give/never thought about sex work til the economy tanked and went bisserk/became comfortable in my gender/inhabiting spaces/places/you wouldn’t wanna be/havin’ brown skin and bein’ queer/you can’t see me/invisible/and divisible/my community -is…

tired of survivin’/strivin’/hard to stay alive when…all you ever hope for is to take another breath/that you don’t catch your death/no time to worry about cultural theft/bereft/of heritage/society’s no longer sparin’ kids/so why me? You buyin’ beamers a schemer with an HDTV and all I wanna do is breathe/some fresh air/eat food with no toxicity/complicity/you blame us for/but this capitalism is pimpin’ you/yep your the whore/and …my people…are…

tired of survivin’/strivin’/to stay alive when you got ends and wealth/but we have to live our lives in stealth and assimilate/to keep food on our plate/fork and knife/we get tired of life/strife/ all these signs/the confines/bein’ on the grind/ and you can’t see the injustice/ of the majority of brown men bein’ in the prison system/ and you pushin’ for the expansion of ‘isms/

DAMN I’m JUST tired of survivin/strivin’/to stay alive when all you can think about is amassin wealth and gettin benefits/when the only benefit I get is grime and grit/and my will to uplift/my people/to awaken sheeple and zombies/but you want to be wearin’ abercrombie/and handin’ us your truth/ while poisonin’ our youth…

Man I’ma survive/stay alive/fight with each breath til the day that I die/for justice/and the end to your privilege/and white-given birthright/til the day we all know we’re descendants of kings and queens/and our spaces reflect this/til poverty and inequality/we wreck this/check this…you got a powerful enemy…but if you wanna work through this you got a friend in me…cuz we will survive! And with each death we cultivate the will to stay alive/your foot won’t be on neck for long/ we’re gonna right all these wrongs/ this isn’t rhetorical/or metaphorical/ this sh* is going to end/the patriarchy, xenophobia, homophobia, racism, will fall…it’s up to us brown folks to pick up the phone …answer the call Get involved, get this sh* solved..we barely survivin’ but without comin’ together we can’t run…but crawl.


Tonight, I want to talk to you from a place of Power.

Perhaps many of us know that surviving….waking up day to day is a miracle in itself. It’s our resistance as folks who are found carefully tucked away or perhaps violently shoved into the margins. Some of us know it’s a revolution when we can still find ways to support others when we ourselves are finding it hard to smile or eat or sleep or make it through another day.

Trans* people of color have disproportionately higher rates of incarceration, unemployment, and homelessness. We receive poorer quality health care (if any) due to multiple levels of discrimination and we are often victims of police brutality, domestic and street violence. Transwomen of color are murdered at a much higher rate.

Victims. The media, grant writers and fund developers always paint us as victims…what about those of us survivors? What about us trans folks of color who are living, ordinary superheroes who sit invisibilized in this movement 364 days of the year? Resisting behind the scenes, at the frontlines of your movements but at the margins of your minds and policies, inching ever so slowly toward our liberation with the few organizations that exist that are willing to make our needs, hopes and dreams a priority- like allgo and the Audre Lorde Project, among a handful of others.

Now, I said I was going to talk to you from a place of power but it’s important to begin by giving the proper context for this state that we’re in now. It’s also imperative to actually name the institutions and systems in place that are constantly trying to render trans folks, and more frequently, trans folks of color, powerless. Such as the legal system, institutions of education, foster care agencies, law enforcement and immigration, health care institutions, etc. And lets be more specific- the people in these institutions, holding up these systems.

It’s important to acknowledge that race further complicates this picture we paint of transphobia. Skin color further limits access to numerous systems we now need for every day survival. And many behaviors and interactions displayed by individuals and groups within the LGBT and queer community further lead to us trans folks of colors’ subjugation, exploitation and dehumanization and make it harder, and many times, impossible for us to survive.

Now that you have that background from the poem and intro…

As a brown, genderqueer I’m going to tell you what I know of my ancestors…your ancestors…our Trans* and queer predecessors because I feel it’s important for us to know who and where we came from if we are going to move from surviving to thriving. It’s important for us to understand our legacy so that we can better understand our power and purpose.

Remembrance is a form of resistance.

So let me tell you a story. Not his story not her story…but OURstory.

First Nations Elders tell of a people who were gifted among all beings because they carried two spirits, that of male and female. Some say that these individuals were looked upon as a third and fourth gender in many cases and in almost all cultures they were honored and revered. Two-spirit people were often the visionaries, the healers, the medicine people, the nannies of orphans, and the care givers. They were respected as fundamental components of our ancient culture and societies not just in the Americas, also in South and East Asia, the Pacific Islands, Africa and many other places around the world.

Many tribes were aware of the existence of two-spirit, gender-variant people and many still have a name in their traditional language for them.

There were rituals that determined if a child was two-spirited. Children of both genders would also spend time with healers, who were often two-spirit people. A Two-spirit child’s childhood was marked by acceptance and understanding by the whole tribe. Two-spirit folks were known to be able to 'see' with the eyes of both biological men and women. They were often called upon to be healers, mediators, interpreters of dreams, and some devoted their lives to the welfare of the group.

Two-spirit, gender non-conforming, and gender variant folks were revered for centuries. We had the gift of prophecy. We were messengers of the Creator. Keepers and teachers of spiritual principles. We were called upon to conduct burials, bless unions and births, and perform many, many other important ceremonies. Prosperity and even existence as a people depended on us and we were considered sacred.

Because we had both maleness and femaleness/masculinity and femininity totally entwined in one body, we were usually presumed to be people of power. Because we embodied both Mother Earth and Father Sky, and held both a masculine and feminine heart within our souls…two spirits…we were perceived as having twice the power.

As beings that transcended gender, we were thought to be better able to be fair. We were thought to be able to see into the hearts of both males and females. We were called on to be mediators. We were seen as bridges. Mediators between two worlds- that of Spirit and the human world, as well as mediators between partners, tribes and nations.

In older world religions the gods and goddesses in-between genders were viewed as whole-gendered and balanced.

Some say that two-spirit people are an affirmation of humanity’s pre-gendered Unity, the representatives of a form of solidarity and wholeness which transcends the division of humans into men and women. A third gender.

When people operate from a dual gender perspective, upholding the gender binary, one can only imitate the behavior of one the given two genders leaving no room for authenticity for those of us who don’t identify with either of these genders.

Transgender and Gender variant folks transcend conformity and in this patriarchal society set on two genders and the dominance of one over the other, we pay the price.

European colonialism has had a harmful effect on many transgender traditions all over the world. Occupation and religion has erased and destroyed a lot of our history and we have been forced to assimilate into a social construction that does not work for us. Will we continue to perpetuate it at the expense of being usurped of our power?

We have to continue to resist being othered. Resist marginalization. Question those boxes that we were not born to fit in.

We have been awakening to our Truth. It is imperative for us to continue reclaiming our cultural and spiritual roots even though our histories and our ways have been suppressed or, in some cases, completely destroyed during colonization and assimilation. We must continue to resist. We must refuse to be erased. We have to assume our rightful place as teachers, healers, and leaders.

Though I am a Trans* person of color, I am not a statistic. Though this day is about remembering those who have not survived, I am alive and already fully aware of the hardships that we face, through my own life experiences. I don’t need to read articles or theorize about what barriers I face. I live this every day.

Allies who are listening. Allies who have been deemed allies by the trans community, if you want to be a better ally…if you want to “help” us…help us to rediscover our legacy. Help us to rediscover our spiritual inheritance. Help us to stand in our power. Programs and services are great but they are not about autonomy. They are not about sovereignty. Help us find ways to develop our own leadership skills and abilities so we can reclaim our place among the leaders and healers of today. Help us to celebrate our cultural roots. Help us to acknowledge our predecessors . Help us to create a more just and equitable world no longer based on the colonizer’s ideas of acceptable gender roles and presentation. Challenge and smash the binary daily with your actions and remember us every day…whether we’ve passed on or if we are alive. Remember us invisiblized survivors that walk amongst you every day.

Queer and Trans* family. Let’s lift each other up and support each other. We need to be in solidarity. We need to take part in community/communal healing as self-care. Not that covertly individualistic happy hippy kind. The kind where we are patient, acknowledge and honor our struggle and pain. We need to work through our internalized transphobia, internalized sexism, internalized racism and other types of oppression. We’ve got to respect our bodies and honor ourselves. Share our stories and histories and nourish each other’s spirit in good company. Audre Lorde once said that self-care was not a self-indulgence but a form of self-preservation which is an act of political warfare.

Self-care is survival. Self-care and community care is resistance. 

And we need to survive. We need to rediscover our power and reclaim our birthright. We are beautiful beings. Powerful beings.

And white queer and trans* folks, acknowledge your privilege in this movement. See that your brown siblings, are suffering and take action to help them take steps toward their own liberation and autonomy.

No one can live with ease while others suffer. There can be no liberation while anyone experiences subjugation or exploitation.

We queer and Trans* folks cannot know our own complete histories without acknowledging those of our siblings. We cannot be whole without realizing we are only a part of the whole. A drop in the sea.

Monday, October 27, 2014

Queer. Brown. Economic Sovereignty.

For years and years the struggle has been all too real when searching for employment due to my genderqueer presentation and, well, being black/brown in the south. Being bilingual has always been a saving grace- or well, it used to be before my gender expression changed. Recently, as I've been trying to sell my books and zines to get into a stable living situation and take better care of my health, I've been thinking about queer and brown communities and our constant struggle to sustain ourselves and not only keep steady employment but actually get more than our foot in the door (and not as a consumer/customer or at a cash register or serving a table). I am loving the move to train our communities to have the skills necessary for green jobs, tech jobs and jobs as holistic healers (such as the few doula and qtpoc birthwork projects that exist). It's a revolution. Though there are some QTPOC entrepreneurs that have been successful, there are a whole lot more of us hustling and on the grind and barely making ends meet. Sometimes it is due to lack of skills and trainings, other times it may be due to lack of education (if we've had to drop out of high school, for instance). And I'd venture to say that a lot more of the time it's due to other people's ignorance and discrimination which can lead to the aforementioned reasons.

So naturally it would make sense for us to take our skillsharing to another level so we can go ahead and start that business or be in a management position or develop that product. A lot of times we're forced to just take what we can get and we are not the charters of our economic destiny. Sometimes sex work provides a bit more independence, oftentimes it doesn't. Selling our art may pay the bills, oftentimes we're still on the grind. So anything that will put us in a better economic position and not cause us to have to take out tens of thousands, maybe even hundreds of thousands of dollars in loans is something I can get behind.

Sovereignty. Economic autonomy. It feels so good just typing that. I want it for everyone.

Some projects, organizations, and groups committed to economic sovereignty for our communities

I want to just briefly list some projects, organizations, and groups committed to economic sovereignty for our communities. They are providing opportunities for training, education and skillsharing:

We shift the ways trans*, gender non conforming, agender and non binary people live by creating technology that economically empowers, improves access to social services, promotes gender safety and community sustainability, while bringing visibility to trans* tech innovators and entrepreneurs.

Trans Tech is a revolutionary social enterprise seeking to empower the Trans community through education. We recognize the unlimited potential for growth in what we offer, how we offer it, and who we offer it to.  Our trainings are delivered on-site or online.  Our curriculum focuses on empowerment, education, and employment

Lesbians Who Tech  have a summit and they are a community of queer women in or around tech who seek to be more invisible to each other and others, to get more women involved with technology, and connect lesbians who tech to LGBTQ and women's organizations who are doing incredible community work.

The LGBT Technology Institute is a tax-exempt not-for-profit organization conducting cutting edge research at the intersection of LGBT communities and technology and creates resources, tools, and programs to support LGBT communities.

Queer Women of Color Media Arts Project (QWOCMAP) promotes the creation, exhibition and distribution of new films/videos that address the vital social justice issues that concern queer women of color and our communities, authentically reflect our life stories, and build community through art and activism.
We actively invest in, develop and nurture the creativity of emerging media artists who are Asian/Pacific Islander, Black/African American, Chicana/Latina, Native American and Mixed-Race lesbians, bisexual, queer and questioning women in the Bay Area.
QWOCMAP provides training, screening opportunities and resources free of charge to guarantee full access to our traditionally underserved community, particularly low-income and immigrant queer women of color.

Initiatives and Funding:

Transgender Economic Empowerment Initative
L.A. Transgender Economic Empowerment Project

Brown Boi Project works to build leadership, economic self sufficiency, and health of young masculine of center womyn, trans men, and queer/straight men of color--pipelining them into the social justice movement

3rd Space Support - an initiative with the Audre Lorde Project
The 3rd Space Support program seeks to work with Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Two-Spirit, Trans and Gender Non-Conforming People of Color (LGBTSTGNC POC) who struggle with issues around employment, education, health care and immigration status. It is a place to give and receive sustainable support; where creation, invention and innovation will be practiced.  We will draw from our resilience to support ourselves.

Within this 3rd Space we hold on to the idea that LGBTSTGNC POC communities have always found ways to support each other and survive outside of systems.  The 3rd Space Support program hopes to encourage and create space for these organic methods of community support and community building around employment, education, health care and immigration status to continue.
At the same time, ALP acknowledges that LGBTSTGNC POC community members also engage within systems to find support and get their needs met.  Therefore, ALP will also engage with these systems to provide advocacy, resources and referrals for community members around the issues, employment, education, health care and immigration status.

Trans Justice Funding Project

Sustaining Ourselves Together

I'm certain there are many more informal groups and organizations that are working together to help each other survive. Since the beginning of time, wherever there is struggle, there are people coming together to support each other through it. I know in my darkest times when I've been searching for employment and dealing with discrimination I've felt very isolated in my efforts. Sometimes queer folks of color have access to spaces that have employment initiatives but that lack racial analysis and are racist. And sometimes other places are seriously transphobic or homophobic.   And when we get up the spoons to go to an LGBT resource center, we might still deal with racism or classism. Other economic projects might be underfunded. Or maybe we don't live in a queer mecca and don't have access to LGBT resource centers or the few visible economic empowerment initiatives. Maybe we don't have the desire or the resources to move to these metropolitan cities with these programs and initiatives.

So what can we do on a smaller (but no less impactful) scale within our smaller friendship circles to establish some sense of economic power? I've seen folks who are really innovative and who have night markets where folks who sell art, books, clothing, food, soaps, herbal medicine, etc. come together to sustain themselves.  I've seen folks who independently sell their work and wares- even plates of food from their homes.

What do I mean when I say economic power, anyway? I mean having control over our economic situation in tangible ways like being able to pay for our housing and health care and that of our family members. I mean, not being exploited by companies who give you the minimum pay while they get the maximum profit through your work effort. True, it's capitalism and many of us have no choice to engage with it. But economic power is about having the choice of how to engage with these systems, your work ethic not being exploited, and you feeling as if you can sustain yourself through your work effort. It's not being worked into the ground for peanuts and not being provided health insurance while your well-being suffers. For some of us it means finding ways to create our own positions and small businesses or side gigs and for others of us it means divesting from these systems completely in whatever ways we can.

I'd like to see more spaces created for groups to come together where we can talk about the ways we QT*POC can support each other economically like Audre Lorde Project's 3rd Space Support. Our ancestors undoubtedly had many ways that they came together for mutual aid. Collectives and cooperatives were born out of their struggle though we see less visible POC representation in them these days. We're still there though and POC collectives committed to sovereignty do still exist. Check out Dr. Gordon-Nembhard's book on the history of African-American cooperative economic thought and practice.

Visionary questions:

  • How will we find ways to sustain ourselves economically as individuals and communities? 
  • What's the work we need to do within ourselves and within our communities before we can build a more cohesive economic justice movement centering those who are the most marginalized?
  • How do we bring together organizations and community members dedicated to working on queer and trans* rights, racial justice, economic justice and policy and advocacy in substantial and more impactful ways? Do you already know some examples of this?

and most of all-

what is our vision for what it would look like for us Queer and Trans* folks of color to have economic sovereignty?

I personally want to see the creation of more access to holistic medicine paths for our communities. I want to see more accessible (by this I also mean affordable) trainings for birthworkers, herbalists, naturopaths, traditional chinese medicine and ayurvedic practitioners and even more access to our community members to sit at the feet of elder curander@s and other healers and spiritworkers.

I want us to have more access to training to be in positions to help our communities build worker-owned cooperatives and credit unions.
I want to see us get access to learning liberation permaculture and how to start organic farms and sell sustainable products and build sustainable homes and architecture.
I want to see us running our own free schools and universities.
I want to see us starting our own art programs and valuing art integrated with healing work.
I want to see us learning more about community organizing and training each other.
I want to see more of us doing work in technology and other innovative industries.
I want to see us helping to fund each other's education and businesses
I want to see us knowledge sharing and working together to help each other discover our power and let each other know that we are not alone in our visions of this work. We don't have to deal with racism, homophobia, transphobia, sexism, ableism in the 'workplace'. We can create alternative economies and employment more representative of us, our work ethic and visions for the work we're passionate about and the changes we want to see for our communities.

Here's more info on the current economic situation for QPOC:
The State of Gay and Transgender Communities of Color in 2012
American LGBT Workers of Color Are Part of a Broken Bargain 
Injustice at Every Turn: A look at Black Respondents on the National Transgender Discrimination Survey
Black and Transgender: Still on the Margins
Why Centering Race in Transgender Advocacy is Key To Equality for All
Remember the closing of Queers for Economic Justice?

Tuesday, October 7, 2014

Journalist struggles with Lenovo Thinkpad, Makes Public Plea OR Why You Haven't Seen New Writings from Me

Hi folks,

I haven't been able to blog as much from my new abode as I expected to. My laptop has crossed over. Some of you may know it's been on it's last leg for some time. I was holding out because it has so much important info not only on the hard drive (I've backed up a lot of it) but those bookmarks I have saved are gold! Ah! So ...I'm writing an open letter to Lenovo to rectify this situation caused by this defective product I have and I hope to post some positive feedback and a resolution. I really want to be able to get these new zines, books, and articles completed! I've got a lot of Queering Herbalism 2 and Herbal Freedom School 3 completed and I've finally got most of the Putting Down the Master's Tools zine ready. Hopefully it will be ready in time for the National Women's Studies Association conference here in Puerto Rico next month.

I'll keep you posted! And hopefully not from my phone...

Here is the letter (minus identifiable details, product details and actual case numbers):


I'm Toi Scott, an author and a journalist with thousands of national and international readers. My books can be found in college libraries, resource centers, and as required reading in university classrooms across the nation, Europe, and the Caribbean. My articles can be found in print and online. My laptop is key to my career and livelihood and for almost three years I have struggled off and on with the Lenovo Thinkpad X100e.

The beginning of my woes started with a purchase on I bought it in graduate school because I had rented a similar model from our college resource center and liked the experience. I had using it while doing social justice and community work and writing papers. (It was superior to the Acer that had let me down)[...]

The first month of having the fire-engine red laptop it began overheating after just 2-3 hours and subsequently shut down, so I sent it back. The technicians changed the fan and it functioned for a few weeks until it began to overheat and shutdown again. Mind you, I was in the middle of finals and I desperately needed this laptop to work. Over the course of the next year, at the most inopportune times, when I had deadlines the computer would act up, overheat and shut down repeatedly. I called technical support numerous times and told them how hazardous the laptop was. I had been burned a number of times. I told them it was defective, but still, all the technicians would do was replace the fan or battery, which did not address the underlying problem.  And then the warranty ran out.

I have sent the laptop back to Lenovo at least six times and have had even more cases opened. Each time I have told the representative that the laptop is defective and the core problem has not been handled. I've called technical support and customer care for these case numbers so that they can be included in this communication but I have been told that the archives before 2014 have been deleted since there is a new system in place and that my former case numbers cannot be retrieved, which is unfortunate. I have documented the two cases from this September and another few that I was able to find before this year, below.

I'd like to point your attention to something disturbing that must be addressed for your customers. I was told  both that there was and wasn't a "customer advocacy unit" by customer care. During my last conversation with Lenovo 'customer care', a supervisor exposed the fact that he'd never heard of this unit before which was a little unsettling since just a week earlier my information had supposedly been taken and sent to the department and I was to hear from them in 5-7 days. It's non-existence could certainly explain why I did not. This is really deceptive and not a very good business practice to not have a department that is dedicated to addressing customer service issues.

This would be almost comical if not that the current situation is dire and extremely frustrating. I am in the middle of writing a series of magazine articles and 3 new books and the keyboard, mouse and all usb ports that support external devices have stopped working. Since I do not have a warranty any longer, I do not qualify for technical support assistance. I called Lenovo two separate times only to be told that my laptop did not 'qualify' for an extended warranty and was told by billable accounts that I needed to charge $650.00 to a credit card as a deposit in order to get the technical assistance I need to possibly have my computer repaired and functional again.

I should not have to foot the bill for the repairs of a defective product that malfunctioned from the first month I received it. The deposit and repairs cost as much as the laptop.This must be rectified. The years of anguish, lost papers and articles and hours of no sleep that I have dealt with can be rectified in two ways:

Firstly, by having the technical unit retrieve my information from the hard drive, since the unit is defective and cannot be salvaged without additional frustration. Even if it runs again, it will still overheat and shut down and eventually melt important parts needed for it to function. If the technical unit does not have the capacity to do this, the expense for the repair and retrieval could be covered.

Secondly, this could be rectified by replacing the laptop.
I was contemplating replacing the laptop with the orange Yoga 11s Ideapad but am extremely apprehensive about having to deal with any further technical issues or frustrating customer service interactions. It has excellent reviews and is a comparable price to what I paid for the X100e. An extended warranty would make me a lot less apprehensive.

I would appreciate any assistance that you and your team may be able to provide on resolving this situation. I will post this letter and any follow-ups that occur on my websites for my readers, as they are heavily invested in my progress toward finishing my next books and news articles. I look forward to posting a positive response and resolution online for them.

And just so you know, I have written the majority of this email on a tiny smartphone since my laptop is not functioning.

Please help me resolve this situation as soon as possible.

Thank you for your time.

Toi Scott

My ordering info:

Customer Number:xxxxx
Order date 2/2011

A few of my case numbers:
[I list six different case numbers]


So within 24 hours I got an email from a customer advocate in "executive customer relations"

"I write in response to your message to William Delong , VP or Lenovo service.
I apologize for your frustration and  the problem with the laptop.
I will assist with a repair  for the computer.
May I have your phone number and address?
I will call to discuss this and provide a box and label to send the unit to Lenovo’s HQ repair lab in NC.

I emailed back with all my contact info and he gave me a call. He told me that I'll have to pay my own shipping to their office in NC since I'm in Puerto Rico. I don't understand why a billion dollar company can't pay my shipping or figure out postage to the states (PR is part of the same postal system).  I guess Lenovo just wants me to be grateful that they are even looking into the situation. The advocate seemed exasperated and ready to go home for the day or maybe he just wasn't into dealing with my situation.

Here is his email to me after the phone call:

Please check if you can ship this to my address. If possible , please have a tracking number for it so I can keep track of the incoming package.

 Now I've got to find the nearest post office here in San Juan and see how much its going to cost me to send this defective laptop back to the states. Now don't get me wrong, I appreciate that they've gotten back to me quickly and that they are claiming that they will to try to fix it. Though I explicitly stated that it will just keep overheating and melting like it has since I got it. I guess Lenovo says better something than nothing....ey? I wonder how this would be addressed if I was the CEO of a corporation or a business owner. Hm.
Hopefully this will be resolved soon so I can get back to writing...
I just want to get back to writing.

UPDATE #2- 10/10/14:
I headed out to the post office just in time for a thunderstorm. Just as they were weighing my package and ringing me up, after I'd bubble wrapped all the goods (well, I wouldn't actually call the laptop "good". Good and defective) there was a clap of thunder and some serious lightening and everything turned off in the building and, of course, the machines went offline. I can't make this up. So, I had to walk back to the house with a garbage bag over myself and the laptop in a torrential downpour dodging trucks and buses driving through deep, murky puddles. You know, I wouldn't have to have gone through all this if they'd sent me a box with pre-paid postage. So...tomorrow I head back to the post office again.

I sent this message after returning from the post office this afternoon:
Mr. xxxx,
It will be $21.90 to send the laptop flat rate with tracking and insurance covering $600. I will be sending the laptop tomorrow and it should arrive next week. There was a power outage today due to a thunderstorm right as I was sending it! The estimated date of arrival is Thursday. Will I be reimbursed? If so, the easiest way I can be reimbursed is through PayPal to the email account xxxx. If a check is sent it will need to go to:
xxxxx.Please let me know if any other information is needed.

Let's hope I can get reimbursed for shipping and that things go smoothly tomorrow at the post office and with the rest of this saga. I'll keep you posted...


Update#3 10/14/14

I received an email from the customer advocate stating that I would not be reimbursed for the $22 I spent to ship the defective and malfunctioning laptop to them.
Here is the email:

[Mx.] Scott,

Thanks for the note. Is there any tracking number?

We will repair the machine , if possible and sent it back without cost. We will not reimburse you for the shipping cost.


So I am out of pocket postage. Maybe it is Lenovo's way of proving some point...I don't know. They already spentquitei bit on shipping over the past years because they refused to replace the unit. Wasted time, energy and money. I don't have any of that to waste. This is my livelihood so I finally took a stand.

Today the customer advocate received my laptop and during another couple emails about the system not booting and needing the log-in he said:

"I will take it to the repair lab and get back to you  in 2-3 days."

Here's hoping for good news from the lab. I'm weary of typing hundreds of emails to universities and libraries on this tiny phone. It auto-corrected genderqueer in one message to gender quest, which I dutifully forwarded nearly twenty times before noticing the sentence. I'm actually on the trustee Samsung now. Good thing it was affordable when my other ancient phone decided to cross over.

 I'll be back with more updates as soon as I hear back. I must say that I am impressed with the the timely follow-up, though disappointed with the hassle and questionable tactics of having a customer whose product is defective foot the bill for postage. Puerto Rico does not cost any more to send a package. It is part of the U.S. Postal system. I send merchandise for a living. I've been getting to know shipping from the island well. I can't think of any reason for them to have me pay postage other than to have me pay something and share the burden since they've graciously agreed to repair the machine...after hours and hours of customer service calls and years of dealing with a faulty product. Sigh. I hope it runs like a dream when it is sent back. And for more than the usual few weeks before it melts down again...

 Excuse the typos. Like I said, I'm doing this from a phone and it's frustrating editing on this tiny thing.


UPDATE#4 10/18/2014

I got an email from the customer advocate on 10/17 saying that the the repair lab is backlogged but that he foresees them resolving the issue by next week. But wait! Just a few days ago I received an email from Vice President of Global Corporate Communications at Lenovo:


I have been following your story online a bit… and of course apologize both for the trouble you have had with the product, and for the hassle you have faced in rectifying the problems. This is not what we would want the experience to be. Sometimes things go wrong. You have been fair – not always favorable, but always I think fair – in your portrayal of your situation. I appreciate that. We don’t ask for everything anyone anywhere says about us to be pleasant, praising or positive … but we do appreciate fair when there are issues with us or with our products.

That said, I truly am struck by how you dealt with this, and how you presented it. I’d like to thank you for that. It seems you are OK in terms of ALMOST getting back your PC. I hope that is the case. (If it is not, let me know). Unfortunately in my job I can’t see or follow every customer activity, repair, etc. So, given that, I would like to send you something else – a Yoga tablet. No strings attached, though if you like it feel free to say so. I simply appreciate the fact that despite the problems you had, you seemed willing to understand that even big companies usually are made up of mainly decent people trying to do a good job. You never made it personal, and you made your points well. So, thank you.

If you are interested, let me know, and we will handle the details.


Excellent! We started a few message dialogue over the last few days in which I acknowledged that he has many other tasks as VP and said I sincerely appreciated his attention to the issue. He seemed sincere in his replies and got how this has affected my work. I accepted his offer with gratitude and also used the opportunity to take a moment to mention the LGBT* tech community and organizations who are committed to educating and economically empowering our (especially the Trans*) communities. It would be be inspiring and amazing if they became a sponsor for some of the conferences or programming that are happening like Trans*h4ck, TransTechSE, Lesbians Who Tech, The National Organization of Gay and Lesbian Scientists and Technical Professionals' Out to Innovate conference, LGBT Technology Partnership and Institute and others.

Here was my email:

Thank you for the follow-up note. I received an email that I may get my laptop back sometime next week. The repair lab is backlogged. I would prefer to patiently await the tablet pro so that I can write a product review and do a write-up of my positive experience with the resolution of my computer issues for the growing amount of tech savvy organizations and groups in the LGBT community (like trans* h4ck, LGBT Technology Partnership and Institute,TransTechSE, and many more) who are committed to educating about technology and providing economic empowerment.

My address is:

My phone number is xxxx in case someone needs to contact me.

I truly appreciate your attention to the resolution of my computer issues, your understanding, and generosity.

With much gratitude,

Toi Scott

More info for the Lenovo marketing team about the growing LGBT tech community and perhaps possibilities to sponsor: (here I added a list of links, the links I have above this email)
I'm not sure that the links I sent will be forwarded to the proper department for potential sponsorship or partnership but here's hoping. I'll definitely keep an eye out for that and mention it if there are relationships formed.

I got to thinking, I'm not sure if Lenovo offers domestic partnership benefits to its employees. They do seem to have employment policy that addresses discrimination against trans* folks as per their 2013 Sustainability Report.

 "Lenovo is committed to providing a work environment free from harassment, including harassment based on race, color, religion, gender, gender identity or expression, national origin, ethnicity, sexual orientation, sex, age, disability, veteran status or any other characteristic protected by law."

I was able to find some information online from 2004 that indicated that they were looking into domestic partnership benefits and this interesting article written in 2011 about companies requiring couples to enter into a civil union in order to keep their benefits once same-sex marriage became legal in states like NY, where there are employees. But- I also found mention of company-wide diversity initiatives promoting women's leadership (Women in Lenovo Leadership or WILL) and a global LGBT employee network. Lenovo has also coordinated, sponsored and been an annual participant in some LGBT business summits addressing diversity and inclusion and LGBT leadership.

IBM (whose PCs ---personal computers--- they acquired a few years ago) received a rating of 100%---a perfect score-- for the 10th consecutive year on the Human Rights Campaign's 2012 Corporate Equality Index. Apparently they have at least one transgender-inclusive health care coverage plan, domestic partner benefits, "competency" training, accountability and resources, along with meeting a list of other criteria. (Check out Appendix A of the report for the list)

So ...maybe, just maybe these policies and culture transferred over as well if they were not already in place.

Our communities are hella innovative due to centuries of oppression and having to be creative to survive and deal with constant marginalization. Lenovo speaks about "differentiation through innovation" so we've got some stuff in common, right? Seems like a natural partnership to me. I like that the HRC Corporate Equality Index actually looks at fortune 1000 and Fortune 500 companies' actual (positive) engagement with external LGBT communities. This includes more than advertising and marketing. It includes corporate philanthropic activities ranging from financial support to in-kind donations of products or services, recruiting efforts, and public commitment to supporting policy changes (i.e. marriage equality). HRC also looks at LGBT workplace inclusion abroad for all those multinational companies on their list.

Well folks, hopefully the next update will be photos of the tablet and my fixed laptop. This has really been an interesting exercise in standing in my power, getting to truly know the companies I purchase from, and seeing my interactions and their potential impact on communities.

Post soon,

Update #5 10/2 3/14

I received this email:
[Mx.] Scott,

The technician replaced the system board and was able to use the USB ports in the [bios]or safe mode.
This points to a problem with software corruption on the hard drive in the machine. I asked the technician  to save the existing HDD and do not remove data. He will install a new hdd, reload the unit so you have a working system.  We are waiting for the recovery disks to load the unit. When they arrive, the repair can be completed.

The hard drive with the data will returned to you so you can attempt data retrieval.

I will update you once the unit is loaded and tested.

Regards, xxxx

It looks like my laptop might be returning soon in much better condition, I hope. I'll figure out the hard drive stuff when I can. I'm glad they could salvage the machine and save the hard drive. I hope the overheating and subsequent shutdown is nipped in the bud as well. So much was going on with that tiny netbook but Lenovo's working it out and the customer advocate has kept me updated and has been professional through email.

Well...back to the lab. I'm using a friend's laptop while she's at class so I can work on these new zines and resource guides!

Update #6 ...11.10.14

Still no sign of the laptop. Tracking indicates it seems to have fallen off the face of the planet on 11/2 in Jacksonville,FL. I'm annoyed at  USPS and their inconsistency. I mean, I shipped my laptop to Lenovo priority and it got there in 3 days. Lenovo shipped my computer 10 days ago and nothing. I was hoping to have it back by now, I won't be able to have these zines ready for the NWSA conference at this point. I have been super patient. It has been a month now since my first contact with the advocate. I wish the laptop would have been sent overnight or priority 3 day so as to avoid a 2 week delivery. The advocate said that fed ex would not "allow [him] to make [the delivery] signature only to [my] physical address" which seems inaccurate. On the website there are a few options for signature delivery. Perhaps he overlooked residential and only saw that this option is not available for p.o.boxes. I can't be sure what transpired on that end. All i know is that i gave my residential address as well as a p.o. box.

I'm disappointed in the way this is affecting my ability to survive and thrive. I appreciate that they have done what they could technologically with the laptop...I just wish they had prioritized the shipping and delivery and had better follow- through in that regard. I still am typing this from my phone. I still haven't been able to write my books or zines, which had cost me a lot. Companies don't have to think about this. They are really removed from the fact that a simple repair actually makes or breaks my ability to make rent this month.  I did customer service type jobs for over 10 years in many different industries with clients who ranged from lower class to upper class. I was always looking out for the most efficient and expedient way to deal with their issues. I would have never disappeared for 10 days, assuming things were OK. Even if I didn't have control of shipping. Customers and clients don't want to be left hanging. Even if you don't have a solution, they want to know you are keeping track of things and that you are aware. Whether you gave 10 clients or 100. I think there just needs to be a bigger advocacy team if they want to continue to grow and be the best tech company out there. No company can do that without a) quality products and b)excellent customer service...which requires attention to feedback and amazing follow-through.

Well...I will continue to wait. And wonder if the advocate will even bother to check in with me. Or if the USPS tracking page will suffice for him.


Final(ish) Update 11/12

FINALLY got the package in. I've been happily researching and writing since early this morning. I am super appreciative of the techs who loaded everything that was on my hard drive back on and also made every effort to load everything back on my desktop. It also seems that I got a new keyboard and battery which is awesome. Now I just have to get a word processor back on here. They also installed an anti-virus which was nice of them.

The countdown is on and we'll see if I can get this zine together and edited and printed in the next couple days. Even if not, at least I've got the tools I need to get it uploaded and distributed.



Mixed news folks...
I've got some issues with the screen. It's flickering now and the comp goes to sleep on its own and the settings are set for it to go to sleep. I sent an email to the customer advocate and he got right back to me about setting up a time to talk with a technician to fix the problem.

The good news...I got an email a couple days ago from the VP of Global Marketing asking for my address so I can be sent the tablet. some point I will have a functioning system! It was actually kind of nice to get some work done on the laptop and have most of my files sitting right where they were despite the new hard drive. The intermittent flickering is annoying but the system is running faster and it's nice to have a functional battery again. Here's hoping we can figure this screen stuff out next week...

Update 11/20

I spoke with the technician yesterday and ...let's face laptop is a dinosaur and I didn't even realize it. Everything they ordered was refurbished since they don't make new parts for this model anymore. This is why it took some time before shipping. We're not really sure what is causing the screen to do what it's doing but hopefully some twiddling with the battery settings will help. The technician said I could call him anytime, which is awesome because the warranty is way, way up and I couldn't extend it- due to my computer being from the ice age. I've had it for 3 years but I guess they started making it 8 years ago? Wow. It's an elder. Or at least middle age.

The VP of global marketing sent me a couple emails and the tablet should be on its way soon. This is a relief because no telling when this laptop will take its last breath due to natural causes.

I have much gratitude that I've got the laptop back and I've been able to write and some key parts have been replaced. There were some minor hiccups in the process here and there due to shipping and follow-up but at the end of the day, they have delivered what they promised and then some.


Friday, September 12, 2014

Puerto Rico: My Home

It's been 4 weeks and here I sit reflecting on the last few years of my life that have brought me to heal on the island of Puerto Rico. For the last few days I've been frequenting the beach- my confidant, my teacher, my altar. There is so much knowledge hidden deep in the warm, fierce waves of the Atlantic off the northeast coast of Puerto Rico where I now reside.

In the first 2 weeks of being here, during my artist residency at Patio Taller, I contracted a (mosquito-born) virus much like the dengue fever, called chikungunya. I was already beginning to feel lonely and having a hard time getting grounded and BOOM! I started getting these immense headaches, then the next day I threw up over and over and over and then the next day was a rash that started on 2 limbs and spread to all 4 and my face. I questioned the ancestors...WHY?! Already I was trying to adjust to being so far from my created family and then I get this disease with no cure. Luckily at Patio Taller there were a number of herbs and fruit trees that had anti-viral, anti-bacterial, and anti-inflammatory properties. The chikungunya's symptoms are arthritic. So yep! I get a double dose of joint pain with having Lupus and this virus. Luckily (?) I am already taking pills for joint pain so I believe that with my pills and the copious herbs and fruit and coconut milk and mushroom tea,etc. that I've been able to have milder symptoms than some folks that have contracted it.

In reflection, having this illness brought me full circle to my love for herbalism. Well, even before the chikungunya, while being on the grounds of Patio Taller I began connecting with the plants and making teas right away thanks to Michelle (one of co-founders of the space) introducing me to local herbs. Within the first week I met a really awesome group of herbalists and healers and they invited me to table with them at a festival on Calle Loiza. I had a good time speaking with folks about Queering Herbalism and the Herbal Freedom School Zines and even sold a few.

After tabling there I decided that Queering Herbalism 2 will be bilingual. It will have both Spanish and English articles. I am excited about the themes for this one. Stay tuned for either a series or the entire guide.


I hope to meet Maria Benedetti soon! I'd love to be more involved with botanicultura and learn more about the plants here on the island. I've been studying up...TRUST. And I've even been making some of the folks in town remedies for the chikungunya and other ailments.

Other than my artist residency, the chikungunya, medicine making and ideas for a new Queering Herbalism, I have been meeting all types of artists, farmers, travelers, healers, visionaries and all around buena gente. Right now I'm staying in a town that is directly on the coast.

The house I'm living at is about 200 feet from the beach--the Atlantic is my backyard.

And from the front yard, I can see El Yunque Rainforest.

The other day I was torn about this situation. A paradise filled with poverty. So many people are struggling. Especially here. The struggle is so real. In Carolina I saw folks that some days just didn't eat. But I also saw neighbors who came together and shared their resources. Fruit from their fruit trees, fish that they'd caught themselves. It was true community and soooooo different than the so-called 'communities' I've known over the years. Though it is similar in sentiment to those of my created families.

You know...I've been thinking long and hard for months on this whole "community building" and "movement building" rhetoric. We need to reevaluate our definitions of community and get on the same page. If  folks aren't breaking bread together, watching each other's kids, concerned if folks are eating and housed or employed and staying out of detention centers and prisons, then it's not a true community, in my opinion. How can we build together if we aren't helping each other to survive. We need to be invested in our neighborhoods before we try to start movements in other states and countries.True, we can think globally and support our global community, but it shouldn't come at the expense of those suffering on our blocks and in our

I've also been thinking that there can be no movement without community or acknowledgement of those there before us and those working toward justice at the same time as us. I see handfuls of folks trying to create movements and maybe they'll make waves but in order to have a movement we have to realize the waves before and after us. The continuity. Our generation is bad about that. We talk of standing on shoulders when I believe we really should be walking side by side with those who have contributed to our foundation. There is no hierarchy of organizing based on a new decade and younger organizers. We are not further or of higher consciousness a generation  or 2 later with only a handful of knowledge from our elders. We should be advancing together not standing with our feet on elders and ancestor's shoulders, rendering their work static and in the past. A movement moves, changes, is transformed. In Sankofa we look back to move forward but it's never static. The wisdom is in the knowing that all this is not linear. We continue to learn and grow and our past is our future is our present. Nothing is ever done. We are never 'post-' anything and it's really hard to build on a shaky foundation with just a few architects and no true community co-operation.

More on that later...

So here I am in Puerto Rico- piecing together suppressed histories. Healing myself with mango teas, papaya leaves, lemongrass, oregano brujo, and other herbs that some have lost faith in or become disconnected from. I am thankful for herbalists like Maria Benedetti and curandera historians like Aurora Levins Morales. Healing justice is something we've got to step up and own if we ever want true freedom. Western medicine...the medical industrial complex...Big Pharma....the food corporations...the 'greenwashing" of the so-called sustainability movement, they are all exploiting us and at times working in conjunction. There are a handful of companies profiting from our demise. And it's just the truth. We need to own our healing.

                      So...back to the struggle...and the importance of   healing....

I struggled for years and years- economically, with my health, etc. And now here I am, in Puerto Rico meeting such awesome people and slowing my life down so I can heal and do what I'm here to do on this journey. I began to feel a bit of guilt as I stood knee deep in the Atlantic looking at the crystal blue, see- through waves. I wondered why everyone couldn't feel this. Just stop being on the grind...and feel this. And I became even more committed to co-creating a space where that is possible. A space where people can stop hustling and just BE and heal in all the ways they need to. Whether that be growing food, building their own home, learning about herbal medicine or birth work, or anti-oppression or their own internalized oppression. I've been talking to so many friends who want to create this type of community. I don't know how far off it is from now but I'm going to keep working toward it slowly as I heal myself from this virus and this autoimmune disorder.

Please send healing energy and good vibes as I continue to transition and walk this path. I look forward to keeping you posted about my research and writings- though I can't promise the frequency just yet!

Wishing you all healing and a sense of community and belonging,


Friday, July 11, 2014

Community Supported Artivism

Hi folks,

I'm raising funds to move out to Puerto Rico where I will spend the next year or more writing liberatory literature, developing skillshares, and using and sharing my knowledge/gifts/skills and abilities as an art activist, educator, visionary organizer and medicine maker to help our communities re-discover our power.

As a person with limited ability and chronic illness and pain and with multiple marginalized identities, I've realized that I have to navigate in this world a bit differently in order to survive. I have spent the last 5+ years pouring my life into visionary organizing, writing liberatory literature, and bringing knowledge to marginalized communities through dialog and skillshares. It is my vision to sustain myself through doing this important work while supporting the larger vision of economic justice and freedom from internalized oppression for our communities.

You can help with this vision.

Be a co-visionary and contribute to a larger vision of giving readers and the community a sense of their power through stories, skillshares, and workshops.

Please contribute any amount if able and/or spread the word by re-posting. 

 Go here to be a co-visionary.

In healing, freedom, and solidarity,


Thursday, June 26, 2014

Afro-Genderqueer at the Austin African American Book Festival Showcase

Here's the audio and transcript for Saturday's Austin African American Book Festival Showcase. I'm excited and, at least, less nervous than I was about tabling and talking about my books there. This is bigger than me, I have to remind myself. And there will be at least one other QTPOC writer and some 'allies' present. I won't be alone.

Here's the audio:


"Well, hello hello...

I'm Toi Scott, author of Notes from an Afro-Genderqueer 1 and 2 and Philosophactivism volume 1 and 2.

So, a little bit about the Afro-Genderqueer moniker...
Being black and queer are two defining identities that heavily influence my perspective. These identities affect how I move in this world. I struggle for visibility as Trans* and genderqueer or gender non-conforming in communities of color and as black in the LGBT/Queer community and as someone who is deeply spiritual and someone who connects with nature-based spirituality  and the spirituality of my ancestors. Essentially, every identity is the antithesis of who we've been socialized to believe should have value in this society.
I should not exist. People like me are not meant to survive. Using "Afro-Genderqueer" is my way of establishing visibility and asserting what I'm about. Who I am in these spaces and at the intersection of marginalized identities.

Though I write from a black, queer perspective- giving voice to those intersections- I also write across issues. Giving voice to common struggles like economic injustice, environmental injustice and racism, food injustice and apartheid, and the struggle to be heard and to be all of our identities- as Audre Lorde ( a black lesbian poet and author) wrote frequently about.

History is also very important in my work. In all my writings I focus on helping folks to see the history of our many struggles- the historical context. Especially institutional and structural racism and the way it affects many aspects of our lives from employment to access to food to clean air and water, healthcare and even our perceptions of Self and the many manifestations of internalized oppression (such as internalized racism, internalized sexism and internalized homophobia).

Solutions are extremely important. We can find a lot of what's wrong in this world- or with our communities in the media, online and in print. We don't need help determining our oppression or that we're oppressed- or what they call that 'foot on our neck', am I right?

We usually have an idea of who our oppressors are even if we don't understand the history (or have an analysis) behind why we're oppressed. Through my work I try not only to talk about the history of our oppression and why we are where we are now- but also to give people a sense of their power and help people to see that not only are we powerful inherently, but that there are ways to do something about the situation we're in.

Many times it starts with education and even skillsharing before action. Awareness and then organizing with folks who see a common problem. Hopefully, we're organizing toward the eradication of the actual root of that problem. We can pick leaves and branches all day long, but we have to get to the root of our crises. This is why organizing across issues is so important, though we may have different end goals- it's all about civil rights. Rights to access. Equity. The right to have our basic needs met. We all want to be happy and not suffer and struggle to survive. We all want to be heard and acknowledged and not just for our struggle.

Being a philosophactivist is about looking at these issues, this oppression, with deep insight and then strategizing to do something about it- taking action.

The most important thing is this- I'm not the first to say any of this. I stand on the shoulders of many organizers and activists, foremothers, ancestors who didn't have these labels of 'organizer' and 'activist'. Ancestors who saw organizing, spirituality and art as one and the same. It's the same message- but just now embodied in this black, queer, anti-authoritarian...dapper...2014 package, if you will."

Tuesday, June 24, 2014


Hey, hey folks,

A lot's been going on this year and we're only halfway through. I've traveled almost every month this Spring and last winter. I dealt with a serious 'flare' in my lupus conditions throughout these same months. I doubted...I questioned...I raged...and then I found peace and clarity. A mentor recently told me that the tools are in the struggle. Somewhere in all that darkness is light. And in the past few months I've been finding balance in my perceptions of them both. I've been reflecting about my writing my organizing and my healing and how I choose to write about this trinity springing from the same root.

I said that 2014 would be a year of education for me and it has been. I've gone to the Trans* Leadership Summit, the Black Trans Advocacy Conference, allgo's QTPOC activist/organizer retreat, a permaculture design course, an Undoing Racism Training. Not to mention the hundreds of conversations I've been a part of with friends and created family, and community members- all skillshares in their own right. Realizing how fortunate I've been to be a part of so many conversations and trainings and conferences, I began to ask myself what my responsibility was to our communities and to those who couldn't be present at those tables or on those couches. It's our responsibility as people who are privileged to inhabit/bear witness in those spaces to report back. I do this through my writing. It's what I like to call neo-griot style. It's news, stories, fables, sometimes part workshop or history class but always bent on informing folks and giving people a sense of their power through this information. There's enough out there to keep us feeling disempowered. 

What are the ways that we can continue to awaken our People and provide real ways that we can thrive and get out of survival mode? Where is the pending revolution that the survival programs of the 60s and 70s were to lead to? 

I'm on a journey to heal and to figure out ways to sustain myself that are in line with my values.  Namely, continuing on my Path, being committed to personal and community healing, spiritual growth and inner transformation, respecting and sustaining the land and planet, and honoring our ancestors. 

Writing is a part of this healing. My writing is the journey. I am in the process of writing a number of books and zines. I just finished Philosophactivism 2: The queerbomb edition. You can get it here. I am also working on  Resistencia: Sangre. You might remember me going  to do preliminary research for a couple weeks last fall. Well, I got an artist residency at Patio Taller in Carolina, Puerto Rico and I'm moving to the island indefinitely to do research, full-time writing, and some much needed healing. 

Here's the video I sent Patio Taller about the work I will do:


I actually just purchased my one way ticket to Puerto Rico yesterday and I'm leaving the second week of August. I'm so excited. So, so excited to research suppressed histories of ancestors, revolutionaries, revolts and rebellions. Our legacy.

I have 7 whole weeks to fundraise for the first 6 months that I'm there (housing, food, medication). I've set up a co-visionary page where you can contribute to community supported artivism by:

1.subscribing to the AfroVisionary e- book club

2. contributing as a sustainer

3. coordinating/providing space for one of the workshops.

4. Donating directly through paypal (message me for information)

Every dollar of every sale, subscription and workshop is going to go toward my $5,000 goal.

Please support QPOC-centered art and visionary organizing. Like Audre Lorde said- art is not a luxury. This book I'm writing and the workshops that come out of it are all about healing and liberation for our communities. I will document queerness, healing, the African Diaspora, Taino history, radical organizing of current day activists and their predecessors, and there will be discussion about sustainability in our communities and the eradication of systemic oppression.

Please consider buying a book, subscribing to the AGQ book club, contributing as a sustainer, or coordinating/providing space for one of the workshops.

Find out how to support here:!covisionaries/c1izm

You can also buy from here:

**a note on why I'm moving toward selling only e-books-
1)Shipping can be costly and I want to keep things affordable,
2) Most importantly- some of my books are 100+ pages long and I want to be environmentally conscious, as a person who is trying to live my values.What does it look like for me to be contributing to deforestation while claiming to be all about sustainability in our communities and doing workshops on environmentalism and permaculture?

Thank you so much for all those who have supported and for those who continue to support!