Toi

Toi
the philosophactivist
Showing posts with label radical. Show all posts
Showing posts with label radical. Show all posts

Sunday, December 15, 2013

Genderqueer Files: La Qolectiv@ Part 2


Guess what...

Genderqueer Files: La Qolectiv@ Part 2:
The Group Journey

is available now!






Know some awesome folks who may want to bring in the New Year with a story about some rad, brown queers reclaiming and resisting? Not only will you be providing them with some awesome entertainment, but you'll also be helping in funding the making of this into a full-length book and helping to sustain the author.

*You can get a $5.00 discount off the combined amount of Part 1 and 2 by using this code: JOURNEY2014.
*If you've already bought Part 1, you can message me for a separate discount code!

You can buy Part 1 and 2 at my online store:

https://www.etsy.com/shop/afrogenderqueer


They will only be available for a limited time before I go back to the lab to make edits and emerge with the novella!

Read more about Part 1 and 2 here:
http://www.afrogenderqueer.com/#!genderqueerfiles/c160u


Please don't hesitate to message me about sliding scale discounts if you are experiencing economic hardship.

Thanks everyone! And as you think of holiday gifts please keep supporting art written by and centering the experience of queer and trans folks of color! It's just one way to confront the growing disparities that we face.




Healing and Solidarity,

Toi

AGQ
Philosophactivist

Friday, December 6, 2013

Queer. Brown. Stories.


So...


Remember that play Genderqueer Files: La Qolectiv@ that had a dope reading this year in Austin at the historic Victory Grill with amazing community members?

Just to refresh your memories-

Genderqueer Files: La Qolectiv@ is a brown, genderqueer story of Rebellion, Resistance, Reclamation, Revolution, and espĂ­ritu/Spirit. A collective of brown, radical gender/queers find that to continue to protect and heal their community that they must discover their innate super powers tied to their indigenous spirituality and the wisdom of their ancestors.







And now you can buy Part 1 in downloadable "E-episodes" (a total of 3) for $9.99 (yep, 3 episodes in all for the Part 1) here.

I am selling these episodes to raise funds so that I can complete the Genderqueer Files: Qolectiv@ "novella".

(A novella is not as short as a short story but not as long as a novel). I will essentially be converting the play to novel format, for your viewing pleasure and I want to have it completed by February 1st.



The goal is that it will be available a few episodes at a time at indy bookstores, zine distros, college libraries and community centers, online, and hopefully...your home library! Eventually you will be able to purchase the whole sha-bang.


Here are some details:
  • There are a limited number (*51) of Part 1 available for a limited time. 
     *Sales for part 1 end 12/14. Episodes from Part 2 will be available 12/14. 
  • Email me at gqstreetpoet at gmail dot com for prices on printed versions. Shipping and handling will be added.


If you know of any bookstores, libraries, schools, gender studies departments, community centers or groups, etc who'd be interested in purchasing this work or having a workshop on it's major themes of race, gender, sexuality and spirituality please let a brown, genderqueer know!

It's difficult getting stories that are relevant to our experiences out there. Publishers are not trying to publish stories about resistance or revolution with all brown, queer characters so it's up to us to support each other in challenging the literary status quo and getting our stories heard.


                                                 


You may now return to your regularly scheduled program♥

Monday, January 14, 2013

Not interested in sitting at your table OR No, thank you to your "table"


We've all heard of the table that's sitting and waiting for us people of color to join. It's had place mats and a glass of water, and maybe even a (culturally irrelevant) salad and appetizer waiting for us for some time some say. Those in lucrative positions and positions of power and privilege keep telling us that they want us to take a load off, break bread with them and let them know what's on our community's mind. They are all ears. We NEED to be at this table that they've created. This table with the nice linens of conveniently, already-made ideology, the polished silverware of entrenched models and old paradigms, the rolled napkins of  (pseudo-) peace talks and (our) compromise.

You see, a lot of the folks I know don't want a seat at someone else's table. The very table that is built on assumptions that the marginalized must be taught, can't organize themselves, and need only buy into pre-made models. Na, no thanks.

We want our own table *and not the kiddie table, thanks.

Maybe some liberals and progressives have missed this in fighting for their own autonomy but yes...we'd like our own autonomy. Our own sovereignty (which Merriam-Webster defines as freedom of external control). We don't just want to be heard on the fringes of your agendas. We don't just want to be heard when something we say complements your agenda. We have had our own ideas on how things should be in our communities since the beginning of time...and it wasn't until our communities were disrupted that we started to have these huge disparities. Being pushed into survival mode, priorities were shifted...but not to the point that we'd like to give up control of what happens to us, our families and communities to outliers who don't know much about our values or needs.

Envisioning and creating a shift in paradigm

We need a completely new paradigm, not the old, musty models and mentality rooted in wayward assumptions and savior mentality. For those who aren't sure what savior mentality looks like..it goes a little something like this...

"Why won't they just come to the table. They never show up. We're trying to help them but they don't want to be helped!"
"We just want to help you/your people/those people/the at-risk/minorities..."
"They just don't want/won't to do the work..."
"They just don't understand. We have to teach them all about how to...x,y,z"

Assumptions make an…

Here's a big issue: subconsciously some white activists and radicals operate under the same erroneous assumptions that our country was built on: that we’re not quite people. We're not whole and therefore to be infantalized. We’re folks to be taught the proper way to go about things: health, education, religion,etc. We need their help…but in the ways they want to give it.

If you want to help...help us to make these important decisions that have major impact on our community within our community. Don't just expect us to come and get cozy in the seat at your table. Odds are we have a different perspective on how we want to go about food and economic justice. And no matter what anyone thinks, it's not our job to fill that seat at your table. You should  come sit at ours. And don't say there isn't one- you probably haven't looked hard enough what with all the projects that are being started assuming that there aren't others out there like yours. And yes, we know, it makes you feel all kinds of uncomfortable to sit at our table. But we've been feeling that way for decades at that rickety, folding chair at your table. That's why a lot of us refuse to join your dinner party anymore. Trust us, it's for the best. It's hard to sit at a table where racist, xenophobic, and patriarchal assumptions aren't checked. Microaggressions- you really feel those in the morning (and weeks and weeks) after those meetings.


Privilege, Privilege, Privilege

It's probably no news to many that organizing tactics are affected by class and race privilege. Radicals frequently talk about these but, in my experience,I've seen few really, truly addressing them. It's always easier to talk about things, right? Or maybe to turn the issue around and say that POC should give the solution to solving this problem (which unfortunately is tied to racist assumptions of what POC should be responsible for).

Tables are tokenizing

And few appreciate being tokenized. This looks like:

Deciding you need a black or brown person on you panel or board or in your collective to represent/speak for the black/brown community.
Making the black/brown person the go to person for questions about the black/brown community
Thinking that having the black/brown person say a few things in a few meetings throughout the year is enough to understand the black/brown community
Thinking that sending the black/brown person to meetings with other black/brown folks and having them report back is enough or is "keeping your ear to the ground"

So again...

Meet us at our table

Where we rarely have a token white person but usually respect our allies if they're willing to put in the work, check their assumptions, and acknowledge that "cultural competence" and "anti-racism" are not skills that can be mastered.

Meet us at our table where we make our own decisions and come up with our own solutions within our communities- because nobody knows what is best for our community but us.

And nobody knows our community needs like we do. Period. I don’t care what school you went to, what kind of degree you've received, what kind of organizing you’ve done in the states abroad, or what kind of theory you’ve read…the Community. Knows. Best. So come join us at our table where I can almost for certain say that we've been discussing issues of social justice since they were issues- even if we didn't have fancy labels for these issues. (This is a hint for you "food movement").

Join us...we'll share a pot of greens or some arroz con pollo or somethin' with you...
Yea, we'll make you a plate...

[to definitely be continued]
-AGQ
www.afrogenderqueer.com

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Privilege and Protest

Sigh. If I see one more white man at Occupy X,Y,Z talking about how the man is holding "us" down ...
So I've been hanging out at Occupy Oakland, seeing what's what and I'm going to say this...it wreaks of privileged folks. There is a large percentage of folks who are highly educated (whether from college or the school of..(should I even say "hard") knocks? No wonder so many people of color are skeptical about this movement. Our struggles are not all the same. I'm not saying that we can't come together over some commonalities...but to talk about the "man" holding us down as if "his" foot is on everyone's neck and that some aren't disproportionately affected- is more than ridiculous. Red Flag number one.

Red Flag number 2. Sexual harassment and women and queer folks not feeling safe and having to have their own section of the camp. I'm not even woman-identified and some man at the information booth found it necessary to put his hand on me and give me a little squeeze in an uncomfortable place. Also, there are men who are helping to organize the General Assembly and other committees who have committed sexual assault or who are sexually harassing women in the encampment. What's being done about that? Um. Nothing. Though there is a "Safer Spaces Committee" ...not many people are feeling safe. Men and their feelings of entitlement...and all under the guise of being an organizer/activist/community-builder who "knows everything" about sexual harassment and wouldn't dare commit such a thing. It really burns my biscuits when folks don't continue educating themselves  and use their status as an organizer to show that they can do no wrong (and that goes for sexism,racism, being homophobic,etc.)

Also...a few people of color see it fit to be divisive. Walking around the encampment talking about why there shouldn't be a POC committee and how "evolved" they are as if color-blindness has anything to do with evolution. It is racist in itself- denying differences and aiding in discrimination and is basically a "microaggression". Discrimination in itself. So, who exactly does it serve for us to be acculturated? Mhm. Exactly.

People (men, white folks, the educated, the economically stable) need to check their privilege before theytake it upon themselves to organize these movements. It is destructive for male chauvinists and "macktivists" and theorists and white folks to be heading this occupy movement. How can we build anything sustainable without people feeling safe or heard?

Not.Possible.

More Later.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Radicalism- is it sustainable?

I've been having a lot of discussions about radicalism, revolution, incrementalism, etc. Today I sat and pondered about whether a radical movement can actually be deemed "sustainable." When I think of revolutions, I think of them as vehicles to make change happen whether that be to overthrow regimes, transform systems, etc. I think about grassroots organizations and escalation - this tactic that people only employ sparingly. But what would this world be like if we could actually create transformations within different aspects of society continuously. Not just continually but intentionally. Not just strategically but explicitly. Every single day. Sounds tiring to some because they know the energy that it takes. But, if we were all on board, would it be different? There'd be less grain to go against, for certain. Those who were against change would be marginalized. Now doesn't that sound like a society you'd want to live in?

I'm sitting here thinking about this word- radical. Let's get the dictionary out-
1 :of, relating to, or proceeding from a root:
designed to remove the root of a disease or all diseased and potentially diseased tissue
2 : very different from the usual or traditional : extreme
3 : favoring extreme changes in existing views, habits, conditions, or institutions
4 : associated with political views, practices, and policies of extreme change
5 : advocating extreme measures to retain or restore a political state of affairs

Hm. What is that root they refer to? Is it good? Is it bad? Obviously what we are rejecting and trying to transform is bad, right? Then why is radical a dirty word? Why are radicals marginalized? Oh, ok I get it- usual and traditional is what's "right" and "good". Um, yea but what about all the people who are oppressed by "usual" and "traditional"? What about the different kinds of privilege and power that lead to the rule of many by the few. The foots on necks, if you will. Can you feel that foot on your neck? Do you daily? Well - I'm sure they're sorry about that. They are just acting properly. Being right and good. Sorry that this leads to your state of uncomfortableness.

Extreme changes being favored. Well, why would we need extreme changes if everything is so usual and traditional and good? Darn radicals have to go and upset everything and everyone! They must be making things up. The policies are fine- if they're not broke...
You get the point.

So- I guess that we've established that radicals can't work within the system that is so traditional. But, I'd like to argue that they are there. They don't call themselves radicals, though. Few people devoted to social change in communities (especially communities of color) do. I guess they don't have time to label themselves but don't be deceived. They have processed this, their place, and the place of others. There are all kinds of tension in the radical community. There is no one type of radical politic unless you look at the common thread of wanting change. But, don't most people who are marginalized? I don't know many people who are struggling to keep the foot on their neck. We like to breathe, too.

And one must really wonder about the privilege that is present in labeling oneself  "radical". Few of the oppressed and marginalized can afford to face the consequences of that label. If you are oppressed day in and day out because of your race, odds are that you are not going to want to add more oppression to your heaping plate. Also, the very white face of radicalism is not exactly appealing to you- especially when many come from a place of privilege that has not quite been processed,checked,or eliminated. It's hard to want to be committed to social change and then to go into these circles that are predominantly white who are committed to it (or say that they are) but they haven't done the work they need to do to eradicate the -isms present in the larger community (racism,sexism,homophobia). I've really reflected on this...why people of color are not at the table. I'm sure that some got the invite--- but when it comes down to it- were they really invited? And when they  RSVP and come to the table- will they like the entree? Or will they be forced to assimilate- to taste the dishes that have no relevance to them and smile and dance a happy dance like the one they do daily in every other setting. Will they be the token...the expert on blackness,latino-ness, Asian-ness?etc? I assure you that we don't really like that. We can't really speak for everyone in our race. And we probably shouldn't even be thought of as "mono-racial" anyway. I'm more than black. Sorry, I know it's easier to think of me as brown and lump me into this brown hole of cultures,etc. but...well, I'm not in a place where I'll allow that to happen anymore.

 But I digress.

Back to these white circles...us brown folk have our own day to day issues of survival that make marriage equality and "sticking it to the man" frankly look ridiculous and dangerous. When we have to worry about not being "too black or brown" so that we can keep our job, being ex-communicated from our communities because we have to buy into the White American dream and are seen as selling out because it's the only way we can "make it", or when we have to swallow our pride each and every day on the subway or the Metro-North train, or at coffeeshops and grocery stores because white people feel entitled and police our actions and expressions in every setting where they are predominant...(and I can take this into gentrification if you want...and the ways the spaces change because white people feel unsafe--we can break down just how "unsafe" it really is and what is really meant by this white notion of "safety"...but I won't digress). When we are seen as welfare queens, the enemy, immigrants, foreigners, people who don't belong, ignorant, "ethnic", etc....daily. DAILY! We don't want to go sit in a room full of white folk who can't even get that...and who tell us "well, this isn't tied to race. This is a class thing. This is about wealth...power." What??? You don't think wealth and power dynamics are tied to race? Oh no....we won't be coming back to that discussion. And we won't come back to a discussion that goes into theory and distances itself from what is at hand either. I don't want to talk about the government and conspiracies and theories when I've experienced homelessness, I can't get a job because I have an "ethnic name" or there are expectations placed upon me for having brown skin (whether it's that I"ll be too "ethnic", too angry, or a great pack mule----yes I've experienced every single one of these). Sigh. I just can't relate. I try...I try. I fail. I can't relate to a bunch of people with privilege who won't process it. I can't look at a person whom the system is set up for and hear about how they are oppressed  because they can't wear a purple mohawk and tattoos or smoke weed publicly or squat in some vacant property, aren't respected for unconventional views on relationships i.e. polyamory, etc. I just...well, I think you get the point.

When people are worried about survival and basic needs--it sure makes some of the things said within discussions in white radical circles hard to swallow and maybe even hard to take seriously to be honest. It's not that we don't want to empathize, I mean, after all- we have been socialized to do just that since we were in diapers (by our parents, family members, and society). You know, make whites feel better about white guilt, shift the discussion away from race, say "But you're not like the others" (just like we hear frequently) and coddle them, dust them off and put them back on their feet. We are accustomed to being the teacher in teaching moments like this...but when we want to talk about change and actual revolution---we don't want to have to worry about this. We don't want the focus to be shifted away-- some of us this whole coddling thing is second nature and we kick ourselves afterward. It's like Pavlov's dogs. Seriously. I can't make this up. I experience this all the time during discussions around race, class, privilege,etc. We as people of color are trained to set our emotions aside because they aren't important or *as important. Our pain is not as important as that of the white man or woman. We are not allowed to feel pain or we must set it aside. How does this play out in discussions about race and oppression in settings that are predominantly white? I won't take this further. I'll leave it as food for thought.

So- Incrementalism. Apparently the visible radicals aren't for this. Takes too much time. We need change and we need it now! Unfortunately, this is now how any system is set up in this country. Systems are set up on the assumption that they won't fail and that there are no flaws. And with a sidenote that just in case the aforementioned sentence does happen to come into fruition that there will be some quickfix that will fix everything.
Yea, if anyone believes that change is not incremental- I would direct their attention to ALL movements that have ever happened. If you believe that what happened in Egypt happened overnight and that it's due to social networking...I don't know what to say. Revolutions don't happen overnight. There is always marginalization, outcry, inquiry and education, organizing and an uprising. Of course there are other elements, but I think you follow me. Now, what I think that people don't want is the pseudo-incrementalism that the government and other institutions use many times. The kind that takes decades to roll out or never happens period.But- that's not incrementalism. I'll leave it to you to look that up.

The other night I went to a discussion on campus about how to raise critical consciousness.  A student made a great point about campuses that are liberal vs. radical. Not the same. Not at all. I challenge you to think about that. All this "progressiveness" and "liberalness" doesn't necessarily mean that anybody is trying to change any status quo. I assure you that the privileged are not interested in giving up power or privilege. It's not that they won't share- it's just that they are oblivious to the fact that this can't be shared. Not with the way that society is set up today.First of all if we are going to tackle power and privilege we need to understand it. Yes, this is radical. And once we understand it we have to get at the roots---we have to upset the balance of power and we have to take away ALL privilege. Yes, that's right. No one should be over anyone. Now THAT's radical  I'm sorry did I sound communist? Well- yea  I know that I agree with a lot of ideas prevalent in socialism and communism. Hm...I wonder if the FBI is looking at this blog. Seriously. I wonder if the CIA does google searches for leftist blogs. I bet they do. But you know what will happen- they'll say--this little brown person has no power to make the change they want. And they'll be so wrong. Because I'm all about creating a movement. Next blog I'll talk about my ideas on radical education---free universities...and smashing the ivory tower. Radicals don't come out of ivy league colleges- social change that doesn't perpetuate uneven balances of power doesn't come out of ivy league colleges and private education- enough said. People need access! Tools! Power to the people!!!

Back to sustainability to wrap all this up in a nice and neat, radical untraditional wrapper. I don't know maybe it's made out of safety pins or something...(shrugs). How do we sustain these movements that people are calling for? Yearning for? How do we not just picket and protest- but create change and then make sure that the change doesn't get forgotten and written off as post-blahblahblah. This society is not post-racial or post-queer or post-anything. How do we bring whites and people of color together? Well, we have to educate ourselves and each other. We've got to self-reflect and process. Get this stuff out of our system. We have to know that mistakes will be made but we need to be patient. We need to build those bridges that Gloria Anzaldua talked about. We need to be the change like Gandhi talked about. Enough with this pseudo-intellectual/couch activist/armchair philosopher/armchair revolutionary/ pseudo-radical refuse! I think the label for that is liberal...or is it progressive?

Let's make change people. Let's build a people's movement that spans all identities and eradicates all inequality and disparity. In order to do this- we have to talk to each other. We have to understand each other. We have to know one another. We have to know how our actions have consequences for other people. It is an obligation to not others- but ourselves. I assure you nothing will happen...no progress will be made until we do just this. There will be nothing to sustain if we don't commit to this...and the only way we can sustain a radical movement and create substantial change and transformation is if we make this commitment. It is a life-long process. A 2 hour workshop ain't going to do it people. Sorry to burst your bubble. But, I feel like most of you know this.

that is all.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Thoughts on Being Radical, Queer, and Of Color and other musings

So- obviously there's some dissonance in just the terms radical and "of color". Hm. Some people don't see that and it's a little disturbing. Some people think that it's something else- that people of color aren't committed or don't back the so-called revolution. Not many really step back and critically analyze the situation---people of color cannot be overtly radical without being trampled upon. I mean- hello...did you see what happened during the civil rights movement? Who was sprayed with fire hoses? Whose churches were bombed? Who was hung? Who were humiliated? Why would a marginalized people try to make themselves visible in the way that a radical would? It doesn't make much sense. So is it that they are not committed or that they are using common sense? People of color must use other tactics. They must be subversive and cannot afford to be seen as radical or against the system. White privilege in radical circles must be analyzed. Oppression within radical circles must be analyzed. How can we find ways to racially integrate these circles? How can we find ways to start a conversation between people of color who are creating social change and radicals who are creating social change? How can we get dialogue going? I suspect that it's going to have to start with anti-racist dialogue because the experience of a person of color must be understood. The experience of being white...whiteness...privilege must be understood and deconstructed. Then we can move on to class and anti-classist politics,etc.



So am I an anomaly? Sort of. I have gone to two liberal arts colleges. I grew up with class privilege. Though I feel voiceless in my classes a lot of times...my degree gives me a little bit of leverage to at least open my mouth. I can seek out people with ideologies like my own which more often than not came from academia. Radicals are usually educated- whether self taught or whether they've been to college. There seems to be this vocabulary that is not accessible to non-radicals at times. Some would also argue that some radical spaces are inaccessible. Well, I can't speak on that--

but I've been thinking a lot. And I really want to come up with a good definition of what radical is because I feel like we toss the word around so much but that we all have different ideas. What makes an action radical? What makes an ideology radical? Is it just a word tied to race and class? Did Malcolm X call himself radical? Did Dubois and Garvey call themselves radical? Did Tubman,Bethune, Truth, Hooks,etc. call themselves radical?



And how do we begin to reconcile radicalism and incrementalism? Civil disobedience, non-violence and escalation? Anti-racist/anti-oppression philosophy and theory and the actual lived experience of this oppression? The radical's interest in distancing oneself from identity politics in order for utopia and the person of color's (or disabled person, or queer/LGBTTSGNC person, or woman's) understanding that there can be no utopia without the acknowledgment of identity and the subtle and overt oppressions caused by multiple layers of it?



food for thought.